Tuesday, September 1, 2015

Mr. Businessman

I had a stuffed animal that mildly resembled a potato the size of a watermelon wearing a stripped red and white necktie. I called him Mr. Businessman. I wasn't like other kids.  All the other boys in kindergarten loved the color blue. My favorite color was/is yellow. In elementary school when boys become obsessed with fast cars like the Porshe 911 or the Labergini Tresterosa.  I decided that when I grew up I would ride in a stretch limo. 

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

What are you?

What is your background?  History with a focus on Cold War era global social history. I did my capstone in peasant revolutions. However my graduate study was is marketing and strategy.  No I mean what is your family background? Catholic...Mostly. No I mean what is your ethnicity?  German mostly then Irish with a bit Czech or more precisely bohemian. No I mean is one of your parents black?  Eh... Not exactly. My Afro comes from my mom. Dominant gene from her mom. Who was literally off the boat German. She grew up on farm. She had never seen a black person until she came America.  300 year paternal family tree all Otto, John, Otto, John all the way back.  Somebody slept with the milk man?  Are you sure you are not black?  Well race is a social construct coined by Hagel and used to perpetuate colonialism. It has no basis in any modern scientific classification of people. And yet it is also very real. But in the subjective eye of the beholder. So if you perceive me to be black or mixed or light skinned. Then that is what I am. Eh I see you are already getting bored.  This is where the dialogue usually ends if it gets this far. I never get to the part about my cultural identity.   My story of racial identity. My affiliations. My take on privilege. My pride. My insecurities.  Your really just wanted a straightforward answer to the question: are you black?

Wednesday, July 15, 2015

Sleep deprived

I get insomnia every couple of months. I usually waste the entire time staring at the ceiling, wishing I was sleeping and worrying about being tired the next day. I wonder what might be if I just got out of bed. 

Friday, May 29, 2015

Faith vs Secular Humanism

Yes please.  The Bible cannot stand as an all encompassing cosmology to a rational person. Secular Humanism when forced to be strictly rational loses its soul and degrades to nialism. So I choose the story of Jesus Christ to guide my life and I chose to engage as a human with a part to play on the world stage for a brief moment in time. 

Missing years

Okay so I didn't really blog for 5 minutes per day as planned. It has been almost 5 years since my last blog post.  Last night I listened to a play list of angsty punk rock songs from the early 90s. I realized that the things I was angry about back then, really haven't changed much: Racism, poverty, political corruption , corporate greed wanton environmental destruction.